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Tuesday, 2 August 2016

First INDIAN SHAWOL to see SHINee - KCON FRANCE

So it all started with my daily stalking in twitter and my friends (Sreemeera and Sheeba) had tagged me on a post which said “SHINee in KCON Paris”. Honestly, I didn’t care much coz going to Paris from UK is not easy for someone who requires visa. But more than that it was a little creepy to travel alone, though I travelled all by myself to Infinite’s concert in London. I have a friend who is a BTS Trash and I saw another post in twitter which said BTS will also be joining the line-up. OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
I SCREAMED THE ABOVE LINE LOUD coz I knew now there’s a possibility. I remember spamming her WhatsApp talking about KCON and then she went CRAZY like me as well. We didn’t know what to do where to start. We like quite far away so it took a week for me to meet her and then we were fangirling like crazy. Now coming to the important part before the concert. THE TICKET SALE.
There were 5 categories but we both convinced our self to go for the highest price one, in order to be close to the stage and we didn’t want to take the standing one. D-DAY for ticket sale and we both had separate laptops, woke up 2 hours earlier and was refreshing the ticket selling websites (there were 3). The time was 10 AM for ticket sale, and the moment it was 10:00 the sitting tickets next to the stage was ALL GONE. We both were shivering, didn’t know what to do!!! COME ON WE WERE SO CLOSE TO MEETING OPPA’S! The only one was left the seating tickets which were far away and the standing tickets close to the stage, so we didn’t have any other option than to go for STANDING!



BEFORE DDDDD-DAY-
We finished our trip to Eiffel tower and Musee de Louvre and then we planned to go to the arena around 3 AM for the concert which was at 8 PM! Because most of them were saying that they were planning to go to around the same time to get a good spot near the stage. So after our trip to the Eiffel the day before the concert, we wanted to go to the arena to just have a look and HOLYYYYYYYYY ME, THERE WERE LOADS OF PEOPLE THERE ALREADY QUEUING FOR THE CONCERT (STANDING) WITH TENTS! Me and my friend didn’t know what to do and we were puzzled, WE WERE NOT READY FOR IT! We didn’t have charge both on our cameras and on our bodies and also I HAD TO PEEE! It was around 11:30 PM and a girl in charge of maintaining the queue came over to us and wrote a waiting number on our hands, IT WAS 289!!!!!! WHAT THE ****? They were actually 280 people before me and I wanted a good spot *cries a river* and then the line started to build slowly that around 7 AM in the morning they were literally 5k people( may be more)! Now I was happy to be NUMBER 289! Thankfully we didn’t had to wait on a stretch, we were given breaks to go to toilets, eat, charge our mobiles. BUT DAMN, IT WAS SOOOOOO FREAKING COLD AND ON TOP OF IT , IT WAS RAINING. The floors were all messed up we couldn’t sit! We were literally hugging each other to stay warm and was also wrapping ourselfves with ALUMINIUM FOIL.  3 HOURS before the concert every fandom started to giveout free banners, fans and some people were also selling concert lightsticks.




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2 HOURS BEFORE THE CONCERT- they started letting us in and we had to run in full speed to get a good spot and afterall the waiting and suffering in the cold weather. We managed to get a spot just close to the stage (Thanks to a shawol who actually gave us space though we were a bit late) , LIKE LITERALLY CLOSE, THERE WAS NOTHING SEPARATING ME AND OPPAS EXCEPT FOR THE STAGE.
They started playing MV’s . The first MV they played was BlockB’s toy, moved on to SHINee’s View ASVFFDJFB,ASFBKGFJAKS I screamed hellah lot just for the MV  and then it was DREAM GIRL. DAFUQQQQQ  I LOST MY VOICE EVEN BEFORE THE CONCERT STARTED.
Link description for the SHINee VIEW MV:
Link description for the SHINee DREAM GIRL MV:



and then they played BTS Fire , FX 4Walls and again ADAGDJKGFJAFBAKJSND IT WAS SHINee’s DreamGirl! Again screamed and yelled on top of my voice as though they were performing. The best part was all the fans were singing fanchants even for the MV!

So there it goes , KCON STARTED FINALLY!
One by one the artists CAME UP SLOWLY TO SING ARIRANG medley, SUCHAAAA BEAUTIFUL SIGHT!
The first idols were BTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. They were dressed in black and white suits and were performing slowly all artists came up singing, it was BlockB, I.O.I, FX, FTIsland and last but not the least it was MY BABIES , IT WAS SHINeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I screamed so much, like you don’t know how much emphasis I put on that ‘so much’.

Below is the video link for that
KCON France 2016 -  Arirang Medley and Intro by SHINee, BTS, BLOCKB,FX,FTISLAND AND IOI
P.S: Watch until the end for SHINee's entrance and their cute bow towards the South
Korean president

I aplogize for the shaky fancam, I was in the pit and was in the first line and moreover I was too excited!

Then it was BLOCKB to take over the stage, though I didn’t know anyone apart from taeil and zico, I have to admit there was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo GOOD LIVE! THEY STARTED OFF WITH A BANK


BLOCKB FANCAM:
Her + Nalina + Ment + Walking in the rain –  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=322PeLkmA6A&feature=youtu.be






The next on stage on was I.O.I. Alright, I have to admit I have never heard them before nor do I know the members. It was my first time listening to them and it was live as well. They were all so cute and charming and though they are rookies, there live was really good and in order to save up my battery life I took just short video clips which I haven’t uploaded yet.

After them was a short MENT, where the hosts were JINGOO (YES, IT WAS THE WOLF FROM DOTS ) and the lead actress from ROOFTOP PRINCE. They introduced the next ARTISTS who was gonna perform. WHO DO YOU THINK IT WAS?

FREAKING LEE TAEMIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WAIT! WHAT?!!!! I NEVER EXPECTED THAT! WHY DOES HE HAVE TO POP UP ALL OF A SUDDEN! GOOSEBUMPS GOOSEBUMPS EVERYWHERE! I WAS UNABLE TO STOP SCREAMING AND WAS SOOOOO HAPPY! BUT BAE WAS SO DAMN SKINNY! THE MOMENT I REALISED HE WAS REAL, I WAS LIKE, FUCK BAE, YOU ARE LIKE A CHOPSTICK!

Taemin did a cover of Richard Sanderson’s Reality- MAN THAT LITTLE MUSHROOM ROCKED IT AND VANISHED AWAY

Link below- Taemin –Reality

IT WAS AMBER’S TURN TO RUIN MY LIFE NOW! That girl is LIFE GOALS. YES IT WAS FX THIS TIME AND ZOMGGGGGGGGGGG SO GOOD THEY WERE THOUGH VICTORIA WAS MISSING THEY COVERED UP REALLY WELL. AMBER, MY BAE ROCKED IT!


SHE ALSO PERFORMED SHAKE THAT BRASS AND LUNA PERFORMED HER NEW SOLO FREE SOMEBODY AND THERE WAS ALSO A TAEIL LUNA COLLAB!

Not to brag, but yes Imma gonna brag MNET posted kcon videos in their youtube channel and I popped up twice during Luna’s solo at 0:43 and 1:00 at the utmost right.
LOL J


Link below:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j3eKce-cWtg

 Then it was BTS WHO RUINED THE STAGE! OMG FIRE, ACTUALLY SET THE STAGE ON FIRE AND THEY ALSO PERFOMED I NEED YOU AND OTHER SONGS.

FREAKING JUNGKOOOK LITERALLY LOOKED AT ME FOR FEW SECONDS AND EVERYONE CAME SO CLOSE AND HAD EYE CONTACT!


LINK BELOW



Honestly, most of the kcon fans were Bts biased so after their performance I was able to breathe a little and there was no pushing and choking each other to death.

KIM KI BUM POPPED UP FROM NOWHERE WITH LEETEUK AND WAS MCING WITH HIM. I WAS LIKE PLEASE INFORM US BEFORE COMING I AIN’T READY FOR THIS SHIT!

KIBUM, WAS SOOOOOO CUTE SO SO CUTE, HIS IMAGE IN REAL-LIFE IS LIKE A CINNAMON ROLL, ALL YOU WOULD WANT TO DO IS ADORE HIM. He was freaking smiling all the time when he was MC-ING


Then it was FTIsland’s turn to perform. OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
I DON’T KNOW WHERE HONGKI GETS HIS ENERGY FROM?!!!!!
SO FREAKING DAMN GOOD , THEIR LIVE STAGE WAS

(I’ll update their links later )



Everyone except for SHINee was performing and my camera battery was dying. OTHUKAEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Thankfully my friend’s camera had charge and I had to pull it from her since she was a BTS STAN.

LEETEUK CAME UP FOR MCING AND ANOUNCED WHO WAS GONNA PERFORM NEXT!
FINALLY AFTER THE LONG WAIT, THE LAST ONES TO PERFORM, OMG MY BABIES, SHINeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee


Freaking MCR, THEIR ENTRANCE JUST MADE ME PASS OUT.
 THE KINGS OF KPOP WERE JUST STANDING RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYES, BREATHING THE SAME AIR AND IN THE SAME DOME. I LITERALLY COULDN’T BELIEVE IT! TRUST ME, I HAD TO HIT MYSELF HARD WHEN I SAW JINKI, LIKE I LITERALLY SLAPPED MY FACE! JINKI WAS REAL, THE BUNNY WAS REAL, HIS CUTE SMILE WAS REAL ,KIBUM WAS REAL, HIS SASS WAS REAL, MINHO WAS REAL, THAT FREAKING PRINCE CHARMING WAS REAL, TAEMIN BAE THOUGH I ALREADY CONFIRMED HE WAS REAL, I STILL COULDN’T TAKE IT THAT MY OT4 WAS STANDINF BEFORE ME. THE ONES I ADORE, I LOVE AND THE ONES WHO MADE MY LIFE HAPPY WHEN IT WAS ABOUT TO GET FUCKED UP WERE REAL. SHINee were REAL, THEY WERE NOT ANIMEE!


My babies started off with SHERLOCK, OMG SHERLOCK SHERLOCK, MY FAVORITE OPENING SONG, THE WAY THEY COVERED UP JONGHYUN’S PART  AND THE WAY THEY LEFT SPACE FOR JONGHYUN DURING MENT! MY BABIES AS ADORABLE AS ALWAYS. THOUGH I MISSED DINO LIKE CRAZY THE OTHER 4 MADE SURE NOT TO MISS HIM.
THEY SLAYED ME BACK TO BACK
IT WAS SHERLOCK
LUCIFER
BEAUTIFUL
WHY SO SERIOUS
VIEW
OMG THEY LITERALLY GAVE ME NO TIME TO CRY, I WAS ALL SOOPER EXCITED AND MOST OF THE TIME I WAS JUST REALISING SLOWLY THAT THEY WERE REAL.
 AND I ALSO POPPED UP DURING SHERLOCK’S VERSION WHICH MNET UPLOADED AT 04:25, ATLAST ME AND SHINee in one Video

DURING BEAUTIFUL, MINHO AND KEY CAME REAL CLOSE TO ME AND MINHO LITERALLY DANCED IN FRONT OF ME!


SO NOW LET ME GIVE A DEEP DESCRIPTION OF EACH OF EM

ONEW- MY BAE, MY BOO, MY EVERYTHING, THE MOMENT I SAW HIM I JUST SCREAMED AND YELLED AND THE GIRL NEXT TO ME WAS LIKE DAFUQ ARE YOU EVEN DOING, BUT BRUHHH WHO CARES, MY BAE WAS REAL! HE WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE LIKE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPER DOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPER CUTE, HIS SMILE, I JUST PASSED OUT! THE CUTEST THING ON PLANET EARTH IS JINKI AND HIS EYE SMILE AND I LITERALLY WITNESSED EM ALOVE, COMEON WHAT MORE DO I WANT IN LIFE, NOTHING JUST ETERNAL LIFE! BUT THE SAD REALITY WAS HE DIDN’T COME NEAR MY PIT AS MUCH AS THE OTHERS BUT WE DID HAVE EYE CONTACT ONCE. SO HE WAS AFFECTED BY HIS SANGTAE AS USUAL AND DIDN’T KNOW WHERE TO LOOK. HE IS TALLER THAN WHAT WE SEE ON SCREEN AND NONE OF EM LOOKED SHORT. HE IS MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN WHAT WE SEE IN VIDEOS AND THOUGH HE WAS SWEATING LIKE CRAZY HE CONSTANTLY HAD THAT BUNNY SMILE ON HIM. AND JINKI PERSONALLY TO ME, LOOKED A BIT TANNED LIKE MINHO!





KIM KIBUM- THE SASS, MY SAVAGE GURU, MY BITCHY BOSS, THE ONE TEACHES ME HOW TO BE SAVAGE. OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG 


TRUST ME, THEE MOMENT HE CAME CLOSE TO ME HE STARTED TO WAVE AT EVERY SHAWOL AND EVERY FAN AND HE CONSTANTLY WAS SAYING ‘thank you and love you’ LIKE CONSTANTLY AND HE KEPT DOING HIS TWO HAND WAVE. ALL I COULD DO WAS ADORE HIM AND WAS CONSTANTLY SAYING BLESS HIM, COMEON WHO SAID KIBUM IS SHORT, HE AIN’T, HONESTLY NONE OF EM ARE SHORT( I DIDN’T SEE JJONG THOUGH)! AND KIBUM IS SKINNY AS WELL, BUT HE WEARS CLOTHES IN SUCH A WAY THAT IT DOESN’T SHOW

WHEREAS LEE TAEMIN DOESN’T. HE WEARS SKINNY PANTS AND LOOSE SHIRTS, LIKE BAE, YOU WANT THE AIR TO CARRY YOU AWAY? LEE TAEMIN. OKAY I BECAME A TAEMINT OF LEE TAEMINT AFTER THE CONCERT. I NEVER KNEW HE IS THIS ADORABLE. HE WAS TOOOOOOO SWEET. THAT KID WAS SMILING ALL THE TIME AND HIS DANCE MOVES IS REALITY IS * NOT FOR CHILDREN BELOW 18 AND PEOPLE WITH HEART DISEASE*. LIKE HOW CAN YOU DO A 360 DEGREE TURN TWICE IN A ROW WITHOUT A GAP?!!!!




WE HAD EYE CONTACT WHEN HE NOTICED MY SHINee World TSHIRT AND LIGHTSTICK!

OKAY HERE COMES MY BAE WHO RECOGNIZED MY CONCERT SHIRT, TOOK A MINUTE TO LOOK AT MY ONEW PIN AND LIGHTSTICK AND SMILED AND WAVED AT ME DIBIDIBIDIBS MINHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO


WE ALL KNOW HE IS THE KING OF FANSERVICE BUT YOU LOT DON’T KNOW THAT HE IS THE ONE WHO CREATED FANSERVICE. YES, THAT POOR KID WAS DRENCED IN A WHOLE LOT OF SWEAT BUT HIS SMILE AND HIS CONSTANT INTERACTION WITH FANS NEVER DISAPPEARED! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!
They all became freaking babies when there was confetti and ontae started playing with it and they also danced to FX’s 4 walls and BTS Fire, it will be in one of the last two links. Also BTS danced to SHINee’s Lucifer.
OVERALL AS WE ALL KNOW SHINee slayed it like they literally slayed me, my life and I still can’t believe that I saw them and I don’t want to either.

And I’m happy that I didn’t have any post concert depression so far. I don’t know why? MAYBE BECAUSE I MIGHT SEE THEM SOONER???///




Below are the links for SHINee
SHINee- SHERLOCK +LUCIFER +MENT + BEAUTIFUL +WHY SO SERIOUS-


SHINee- WHY SO SERIOUS ENDING (JINKI’S WINK!!! DAMNN SON)




SHINee-View and Eyecontact




SHINee and other idols EYECONTACT and KCON Ending-


It was the second best day in my life and I’M SO THANKFUL TO GOD THAT I WAS ABLE TO SEE THEM IN THE CITY OF LOVE. I HOPE TO SEE THEM AGAIN SOON WITH MY BFF’S AND I HOPE TO SEE THEM SOON IN INDIA!


MY BABIES! YOU ARE THE BEST


SHAWOL FOREVER!

Bonus: Free concert goods

Friday, 20 May 2016

Be proud , you're a woMAN

'I should have been a guy' - this particular line started ringing in me when I attained my puberty and it still goes on ringing in my mind, though am nearly 23. It's not because I don't like to be a girl. But it's just because people around you make you feel inferior. Be it your family or your relatives or some you-know-who strangers. PLEASE CAN EVERYONE STOP THIS GENDER DISCRIMINATION!

Uncles and Aunties who pop out of nowhere trying to interfere into my life and make my parents confused ,  I guess you would have some other important work to do rather than this petty thing. Not only that, when you're daughter grows up who knows, she would want to do everything a normal girl would want ( study abroad, work now, marriage later and whatsoever) and who knows since it's you're loving daughter you might allow it ( you better not be the same old grumpy one you were to stranger-daughters like me and allow you're daughter to do whatever she wants), so why don't you better stop focusing on others lives and start focusing on you're own.

If a neighborhood girl whom you know is working rather than getting married, respect her decision , or even if you don't, how about not going in to her personal life and starting to criticize her parents and herself. How about concentrating on making you're life better.

To all the family members of the girl, stop gender discrimination for the sake of heavens. Let it start from our homes, teach her brother not to do this and he will treat his sister and his future wife well. When you start to gender discriminate within homes, that causes the root for all problems in this world.Where in the world  has any religion asked a girl not to work or get married when she wants and not when her uncle or aunt or grandparents want. Trust and respect the girls decision whatever she wants to do. If she wants to focus on her career and not in anything else , isn't that a good sign? Let her do what she wants and you will really see the real meaning behind happiness.


Girls are human beings as well, though it's the 21st century I guess our minds are still in the 16th century. Dear beautiful women out there,

If you really like to work, just keep your ears shut on what other people say and just do what makes you happy. Earn money, go shopping, help your parents , travel the world and live life to the fullest. There is no better feeling than knowing that you are INDEPENDENT. And there is no better feeling the knowing you can survive without a man's money (though you get married).

If you want to get married, stop marrying by trading 100 grams of gold. If a man really likes a woman , he wouldn't expect to receive gold or other worldly things. Let the world know that you're just not worth a mere resource and start acting against it. This would stop all the negative after effects of marriage. If they demand things from you or if they don't accept you for who you are, I don't think it will end well.
Women are now becoming the men they want to marry , think before you act!

If you wanna travel, earn, save up some money and go explore the world.

It's all up to you, if you want something, do it. If you have to fight for it, FIGHT for it. YES, you will get stressed but never get into the old circle of vicious thoughts of ruining your dreams. Get stressed, sleep for a while, wake up, show the world that you will do it. Face your fears, don't run away! WOman ! You're strong, beautiful, powerful and you can change the world. CHANGE STARTS FROM YOU.




Thursday, 5 November 2015

Woooo! Guess who has a comeback?

I can hear Minho's base voice singing *SHINee is Back*, feels like I'm having a comeback (Oh yeah! Ofcourse I do!)

I'm freaking excited,that I get to write again!


OMG! It has been freaking 6 months since I blogged and I hate myself, KILL ME!

How could I do this? Arghhhh! I wouldn't say I was busy, coz the whole world knew I was sitting idle for 2 months at home. It's just that I was a Lazy Gooseberry!

Yes! I quit my job, somehow convinced mom to let me study abroad, packed my bag and I ran away from India.

Miracle isn't it, the last post was full of rejections from my Mom

But my mom's 'NO' had more power, I 'm still not sure what made her change her mind, Yeah, I did put some melodrama and had to bring up my acting skills (But it wasn't acting though, I just poured out all my feelings:p!)

But she didn't stop, she wanted my dad to accompany me to my Uni, and I didn't want that to happen, from the start till wherever life takes me, I wanted to do it myself, explore em myself, But she somehow was very particular about that.

My dad on the other hand wasn't worried(I wouldn't say he was not at all worried, but he knew I would take care),  so he didn't want to come as well.

SUCCESS AGAIN
 
And then few days before leaving, people around me, friends, relatives, neighbors started paying more attention to me,making special foods for me and eventually nagging me to eat

I had to run away from all of them to make sure I was ok, but no they didn't stop, someway or the other they turned up chasing me

So yeah, managed to get out of the box somehow on 14th of September and flew all the way to Great Britain. 

Story will be continued later, coz I don't want to talk about everything in my comeback blog! And I have loads and loads of info to share. It's been one month and around 20 days, since I came here and I'm loving it


To be continued... 


-A Wanderlust from England- 

Tuesday, 7 April 2015

How does it feel when your dreams are shattered?

I have been off blogger from the start of the year! This is my first post for this year! And I never thought it will be something which would affect me badly!

MBA! Doing MBA has always been my dream! To all the third person strangers,if I say I wanna do MBA they might think of it as "Just an MBA right?".But that's not the case for me!

From when I had started my engineering I wanted to do my MBA abroad! I had told this dream of mine to my parents from when I started to have it! Now when it's the right time for me to start it, it's become a barrier!

I'm not blaming my parents,but concerning my safety they wanted me to apply to Dubai since my uncle was there! I told my mom I can't compromise with my studies in a country where MBA colleges aren't that great! But they insisted me to go there.so then I was like okay! Then concerning the financial aid myself along with my parents decided to look for colleges in Malaysia or Singapore since Dubai was a bit expensive! But once again Malaysia and Singapore had hardly 2 to 3 colleges,out of which all of them asked for a minimum of 2 year work experience, which for me was a barrier since I have only a year of work experience! Since my parents were afraid to send me across the seas, out of no option I decided to look to into colleges within Asia, which was when I found out business schools with 5 palms of excellence(business schools are categorized a with 5 palms of excellence up to 1 palm of excellence,with 5 being the top class universities like Harvard!)

I found 3 business schools with 5 palms of excellence which didn't ask for work experience and I contacted them personally via mail to find out about the other issues and scholarships!

I got my hope back and I decided to apply to one among the three jniv! But since I myself was concerned about safety.I had contacted the local Muslim people there(Muslims were less in the country which I had selected) and they assured me that a lot of Muslimstudents come and study here and it's entirely safe and I had also contacted the student communities there which helped me a lot! KAIST Business School ,Yonsei Business School,Hanyang School of Business were some of the universities which I had selected!

When I told my parents about this,day  before yesterday they opposed it and told a BIG NO! I had told them that I researched a lot ( I actually spent a month of rigourous research) among the business schools in Asia.I told my parents about it but they are not understanding and asking others whom they know to research about the same.

What's the point in doing the same research again when there are no possible business schools which satisfy my concern in the countries they are looking for!

 As time flies by ,as the deadline for the application nears,I feel guilty for not being able to follow my dream,for not being true to myself ,for not being able to do anything rather than just to lie on my couch and cry.

No one is there to help me out as well, except for the Almighty Allah SWT.Parents are constantly worried about my safety.But I assure that that its safe and I'll be safe but they are saying a NO!

To see friends/classmates of mine,who being Muslims themselves,coming from an orthodox family and they themselves leaving for their higher education to Europe or States,it doesn't make me feel jealous but it makes me feel down for not being able to pursue the dream which i dreamt.

Am worried whether it'll vanish away when I wake up!When I compare some relatives of mine or some other muslim friends of mine doing their higher education abroad they  ask me not to compare myself with them!

Am not being rude and am not blaming my parents,but I just hope they understand my passion and don't take it for granted and let me fly in my own wings!


Tears roll down when I even think about my dreams getting shattered!

Hoping for a better life!

Wednesday, 31 December 2014

Annyeong higyeseyo 2014(Bye Bye 2014)

Okay, first let me make things clear,I don't celebrate new year,since for us,Muslims,our new year is over way back so I'm not doing anything against my religious rules!It's just that I wanted to record what all memorable both happy and sad events which bumped into my life this year!

This year,personally and professionally has taught me a lot of experiences,and there was lots of transformations as a young adult in the past year!



1) First and foremost the most important thing I learned not only from this year but also from my past experiences is that not to worry about anything in life,which means not to over think stuff! I'm kind of a over-thinking person,who overdoes even a small incident,keeps worrying about it,thinking what I did like two years back and the cause for it now and something of this kind!



In Shaaa Allah,I have just decided not to worry about anything and leave everything to Allah(SWT) and all I have to do is stay patient,do my prayers and to seek his help through dua and other good deeds!



2)Starting from the beginning of the year,  I lost someone close to my heart,My most loved person,The person whom I miss the most and hope she does the same,My grandma she passed away,Allah knows the best! So I hope everything goes fine . I've written about her as well !

http://munawarfathima.blogspot.in/2014/11/i-miss-you-grandma.html

3)I finished my engineering,four years of so many changes,physically and mentally (knowledge-wise change I'm yet to discover :P)! College life had a full-stop.Many heart-breaks, so much of care , so much of struggle all had an end ! Everyday classes,lunch hours ,unofficial and official bunk-hours everything had to come to an end.Friends each and everyone of them started to go in their own way,some to the States,some to Pune ,B'Lore!

http://munawarfathima.blogspot.in/2014/07/so-thats-5th-bye-bye.html

4) As soon as my college life was over I was confused about my future and worried,when Allhamdulillah, myself and my family were blessed by Allah(SWT) to do Umrah in the most critical part of all our lives!Life was rejuvenated after completing Umrah,felt a lot better and felt like all my worries are gonna end soon In Shaaa Allah!



(Post coming soon!)

5) Only after My Umrah was I able to make some decisions in life of what I want myself to be!
I found out that I had this interest over writing and I also actually felt better and felt happy when I write! So that's how my blog started up.Initially I had no idea of how to do or what to start with.My cousin brother was the one who helped me out as he is already a pretty famous blogger.Didn't know how to popularize it well, and that's how I ended up in g+!




6) During the same time I fell in love with Korea,K-Drama and K-Pop and especially a big shawol of SHINee!
I'm very thankful to onew,key,jonghyun,taemin and minho for not only making me feel better when I hear their voices and songs but also for making me smile for onew's sangtae,key's sarcastic-ness,jonghyun's teasing abilities,maknae's insulting abilities and min-ho's own-way-of-making-others-smile abilities!



http://munawarfathima.blogspot.in/2014/11/im-shinee-ing.html

http://munawarfathima.blogspot.in/2014/11/how-can-i-forget-energetic.html


7) So that's how because of promoting my bloggee I ended up getting new friends from different countries in g+ and also being able to create a tumblr blog and be a Full-Time Tumbler-ite! Tumblr also helped me relax by seeing all those funny gif's of SHINee!
Such a stress relief!







Here is my tumblr blog

survivingshineeshawol.tumblr.com   (This blog is only for K-Pop Fans,your stressed go Hae have a short visit!)

8) g+ gave me new friends like Rabeena Thasneem(Chennai,India) and heart-less(Saudi Arabia) with whom I was able to gossip about SHINee and all other stupid stuff! Most importantly g+ helped me a lot for my language-learning and also to converse to people from different countries !




9)One of the big decisions for my personal life which I made in 2014 was to become a Polyglot!(A Linguist basically!)
I've had this interest during my college days,but I wasn't able to persist it in the proper way!
But now I've found a way and I hope I learn atleast 10 languages In Shaaa Allah by the end of 2015.
Now I'm actually learning Korean,Spanish and Hindi,where currently I can do basic converstaions in Spanish and Hindi,and read and write Hangul(Korean)!




10) One another biggest decision I made in 2014 was to join cognizant! I'm not sure whether it's the right decision or not, because I took this decision after a lot of struggle,confusion and worries which I still have now.In shaaa Allah I hope I get a clear visual about my work soon!I am into web and android development,A half-baked potato basically,In Shaaa Allah I hope I become a Potato mayonnaise cheese wrap by the end of 2015! Yet another decision was to pursue my higher education. In shaaa Allah I hope I do all these as planned in 2015





11)As I said I love spending money for food and books,I've been reading books only from lending libraries,but this year I can proudly say that I'm an owner of 10 books and I've also re-gained my reading habit and not only that I've also become a sooper-foodie blogger at Zomato and I'm also trying new places to eat and stuff!

http://munawarfathima.blogspot.in/2014/11/yesnothing-makes-me-more-happier-than.html







Nevertheless,Not only these listed things above ,but I have learnt many other things in life spiritually,personally and professionally



I have certain goals,passion and interests in my mind,In Shaaa Allah I hope I achieve it through Allah's support

Allhamdulillah I thank Allah for making me witness 2014,for My Umrah and for all the things I've learnt!

So that's the end of this memorable year and the last post of 2014 at 22:59 P.M with a piece of my favorite Walnut cake from McRennet!